Ok...so I know it's been forever since I've last been on here....ok...so almost a month. There were several times that I had gotten on here and started typing, but something came up...like Jaden starts crying, or someone comes over...ya never know. Anywho...so my baby is a month old today! Time sure flies! It's crazy how much they change in such little time. I wish I could post pictures on here, but I can't from this computer cause it wont let me download the picture upload software dealy that you need. So sorry guys! Anyways...Jaden is still pretty tiny. Still wearing premie clothes...kind of crazy when she was three days over isn't it. She's finally starting to get into a few newborn stuff, but not a lot. I guess we just have a little girl. Oh well, she's just perfect to me so I don't care. We were blessed with a very good baby by the way. I don't know how I got so lucky. She hardly cries, doesn't spit up much (but I think thats b/c of breastfeeding...), she's pretty happy most of the time. So ya we're pretty lucky. I just keep thinking though that the next one will be the baby from hell..lol. But we will see about that when the time comes....like a few years.....yah...I want more, but i sure as hell do not want to be pregnant again and have another child real soon....not that I don't want it to happen again, cause i do. I just couldn't handle that right now. I go to the doctor on tuesday so we will see if i'm all healed up. Jaden doesn't go till July 3rd. I'm curious to see how much she weighs, but i don't have a scale, so I can't weigh her myself. Guess we will just have to wait till July....

 

Anyways...so wedding plans are finally getting made. I got my dress today....i'm not real wild about it...i mean i like it, but it wasn't my first pick...or second..or third...lol. But it was the cheapest and mom talked me into it. It's very pretty...but I just liked a few other ones better. Oh well...can't do anything about it now, cause we can't take the dress back. We got the place for the reception rented, got the place figured out where we are going to have the ceremony...just got to talk to a few people on that yet though...my grandma is taking care of the cake and plates and stuff. We are meeting with the lady doing the flowers in july. Meeting with the reverand within the next week. I have my colors and decorations figured out...just got to start buying them. The only thing I don't have figured out now is my bridesmaids dresses. I have a picture of kinda what I want in mind...just can't find it! but one of these days i will....So yah...we are getting there...cause 3 months from today is all there is left! Can't believe its almost here....

 

But its not like i don't feel married already though. We live togther...share everything. I pretty much do all the housework and take care of everything it seems like....so yah...we already got the married thing down lol. Jason will do something every now and then...but I don't ever count on it. It just really has been getting to me the past couple weeks cause I can't get anything done! What I used to get done in a couple hours will take me all day now! Laundry takes like 3 days to do, and then its already built up to do again! Dishes seem to pile up like crazy...I haven't vacuumed in weeks....I try to at least keep things picked up when I can, but it seems like stuff just gets left around all over...(hmmm wonder who does that...) I keep forgetting to get some things done that really need to be done. Like call people, send bills, look up something....I swear having a baby has made me lose my mind. I was never like this before! I would never forget anything....and it's driving me nuts that I have to keep being reminded to do something...and then still forget after the 10th time. I'm just going to need some kind of vacation or something here soon or I really will be going crazy or snap or something. I dunno...if Jason would help out a little bit more sometimes maybe it wouldn't be so bad. All this is part of the reason...ok well a big part of the reason I don't get to get on here. There is always so much other things that need to get done first before I can even think about getting on the net for fun. Hell Jason will be on here playing pool for hours but I'm off feeding Jaden, or doing laundry, or changing Jaden, or everything else. ARG! The joys of motherhood......

 

Ok, I'm done wining. I guess I'm just grumpy cause I got up early today. Well plus I'm a little angry about something else that I'm not going to discuss...which is why I'm still up at 12:00 at night. I would normally go to sleep right when Jaden does...but this thing is just bothering me so I can't sleep.....But I think I might try here soon....Plus I think I need to shut up before I make this any longer lol. So I will try to be back when I can....maybe one of these days I'll figure out how to get pictures on here....anywho talk to you guys soon!

Hey all! I FINALLY HAVE THE INTERNET! haha...the only bad thing though is that its dial up. But thats the only thing we can get out where we live. It sucks but its better than nothing I guess. So now I'll be able to get on here more often! yay....back to my usually updates and what not...well hopefully....

 

Anwyays...I Know you are all wondering how I've been doing. No baby yet...but here in the next few weeks she should get here. We're getting really anxious and we can't wait. Her room is all set up and ready to go. Today is my last day at the portrait studio and then Friday is my last day at one of my other jobs. So now I can just relax and rest before she gets here. Jason is gone in Oklahoma city right now for some military training. So we're praying she doesn't decide to come while he's gone. I still say the 25th though lol. Doctor thinks I might go till the first of May. I sure hope not! I don't know how much longer I can last! Everything is going great pregnancy wise and I haven't had any problems. But I've been getting so uncomfortable and I'm so ready to get back to things I used to be able to do that I can't right now. I've been dying to work out...or wear normal jeans again lol. To be able to lay on my stomach....so many things I want to do again. And I especially want to meet and hold my baby girl. I'm so ready to do that...and I know Jason is too. But I guess now its just the waiting game. I just hope we don't have to wait too much longer.....

 

Well I need to get going. I'll be by to check up on everyone soon. I have a bunch of errands today before I have to get to work. But I'll probably be back tonight or tomorrow! Hope everyone is doing great! Talk to you all soon!!!

Hey guys! I know I've been pretty much gone lately. But what can I say when I have a POS computer? Oh well. I feel bad about not posting and keeping up with everyone as much as I used to. But I still think of ya'll from time to time.... Anyways....my Christmas was ok. Nothing special or exciting really. We had my mom's side of the family's Christmas on Christmas eve. It was nice to sit and talk with that family. Then after everyone had left, me and Jason headed for Oklahoma to go visit his step mom's family. Yes we drove over night to get there...and it sucked! Never again will I be driving that far over night. NEVER! Its bad enough driving during the day for 7 hours. But its even worse at night when you are tired as hell! But anyways, we got there at 5 in the morning and then slept for a few hours before we were woken up by a bunch of noisy kids lol. After everyone opened up presents we went to the lake down there to go arrowhead hunting. I didn't find nothing that time, but Jason found one that was almost perfect. It was a nice one. His cousin found quite a few too. Then we went back to the house for dinner and everyone left so me and Jason went outside on the swing and talked for a good few hours or so. It was nice just to sit there and watch the sun set and talk. Real nice. I wish things could be like that more often..... Anyways...we ended up playing UNO with half of his family that night. It was fun, but there were 10 people playing so it was pretty noisy. So after a few games of that we went back to his aunts old house so we could get some sleep. We were pretty worn out from driving all night and not getting much sleep....The next day we went out arrowhead hunting again. I found one in the first 20 minutes we were out there. Then we went to a different spot, and I was tired, so I stayed behind and laid on the beach. It was really boring and all I wanted to do was go home. So I went back to the car and sat there and listened to music for a good 2 or 3 hours. Once everyone got back me and Jason headed on home. Another tiring drive! ARG! But I was glad to get home.... So I guess that leaves me to today...Oh by the way, if you listened to the news and saw that there was a bunch of fires in Oklahoma..they were right next to where we were staying. Nothing of his family's got damaged or anything, so all is ok. Anywho....I've been pretty irritated with Jason today. Just a lot of little things have been bugging me I guess. First of all he asked me to take a week off so we could spend some time together. Well yesterday he left my house to go home and I stayed to clean. Well I thought since he wanted me to take off so we could spend time together, I'd go stay with him at his house. Well today, I haven't hardly spent any time with him. He worked on this gone he has, then left to go to another town to get a part for it. Once he got back and fixed the gun, he went out shooting with his brothers. Then when he got back he went out to the bar with his dad and brother for a good 3 hours or more. I was getting really ticked off and was about ready to go home when they finally showed up. Thank God his step mom was here or else I really would have left. It just really makes me mad that I took off so we could spend time together, and we aren't spending time together. GRRR! Well when he got back, me, Jason, his brother, and his brother's girlfriend played cards for awhile. Well I know he already must of had a bunch to drink at the bar, but he still kept drinking one after the other while we were playing cards. Normally I wouldn't mind this. But it's like he has to drink every night! I don't care when he just drinks a couple. Thats cool. But when he drinks a lot...It starts to make me mad cause for one. I can't drink and have fun, so I get to watch him. Then he just irritates the crap out of me when he is drunk. The other thing that has been bothering me is the smoking. First off I hate the facts that he smokes. Its one of my biggest pet peeves....is smokers. Well what do you know, I'm dating one and having his child. Plus his whole family smokes. First off I don't want to be around much smoke now that I'm pregnant. But since Jason has been working down south it's like he's been smoking a whole lot more. And he's not even trying to quit anymore. He just seems to smoke a whole pack in one night. ARG! Then that leads me to the next thing. So he complained about how he doesn't have any more money till he goes back to work. Well then why is he wasting his money on all this alcohol and cigarettes? Then he says tomorrow hes getting up early so he can go by ammo for his gun. WTF? The boy needs to learn how to stop blowing his money! HELLO! We have a baby on the way!! It would be nice if we could save a little for it and a house....but no...we can't cause he likes to blow all his money. GRRRR! Ticks me off! He just needs to learn to stop! And quit the habits, cause once the baby is here and he's home...I'm going to get realy pissed if he goes out drinking and smokes a lot and blows all his money on crap. Cause he wont be home that often, so I'll want him to be there with his child instead of out drinking. I'll be damned if he goes out partying with me at home all the time with a baby. Don't think so! Ok....so I'm just mad and trying to blow off steam. He's been sleeping for the past couple hours and I just haven't been able to. Just have too much on my mind and all I want to do is go home right now to my dog. But I don't want to drive this late at night and his boss is having this bbq tomorrow afternoon. So it would be pointless to go home. I plan on going home afterwards though. I told Jason, but it didn't sound like he is coming with me. Oh well...gues I'll spend my time off that I took off for him by myself. Or with my dog I guess I could say.....*sigh* Well I've written enough and I need to try to go to bed. Plus I'm in the room that his brother and brother's gf are staying in and I think they want to go to bed. So i'm out. I hope everyone had a great Christmas and have a fun New Years. Don't party too hard though! hehe...I'll try to get back on here soon..Toodles!